Lived Experience Forum

[GonePirate]

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@theaveragejoe wrote:

When I paint, or play music, or write, I go into another world  and all of my problems vanish. Sometimes I forget what time it is if I get really involved and I can go for hours.

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ahoy there @theaveragejoe i was much the same a few years ago with writing and drawing

long story short

someone i trusted and loved i let into that world gave them a glimpse of my "madness"

they did everything in their power to destroy it for me

and i regretfully allowed them to

now i struggle to write my stories havnt touched them since then

and drawing well i used to have a shoebox full of my artworks from age 13 to 19

the destroyer of worlds torched the lot

ive struggled to rebuild a portfolio of art i now have i dunno 30 pics im happy with

my hobbies my world my escape dide that day

and i havnt been able to revive them

i can really only write when my mind is so full of words and rhymes i just blurt out poems

[theaveragejoe]

HI there Pirate,

yes this person may have had a negative impact but maybe this person is not the whole reason for why you have discontinued to pain or draw or do the things that you used to do.  We do go through faces, in life,  but our talents never leave us, they are always inside, waiting to be woken up by something. You will probably get the urge to do it all again when the time is right, and you will find that everything you need is still there, it never left you. No one can destroy something like that, is indestructable 🙂

[GonePirate]

oh how I hope your right

that its all just laying dorment and not lost

I was gifted with a muse for so long I don't know what to do without it

[Bimby2]

Yes, art work, which, when I get involved with can help me become so absorbed in, that I forget about

anxiety and depression. Doing art projects is a great soother to one's mind. Bimby2 

[GonePirate]

I was having a restless night the other night it was about 2 am

I put pen to paper so to speak
I have a notepad app on my phone

and I wrote out a synopsis for a story I started getting into in about 2009 I was tappa tapping away until 330 and was finally done with it

it felt good to revisit this old world again

[EricG]

It seems to be contradictory: talking about lettting the mind go and wander and calling it mindfulness: noun: "a mental state achieved by focusing one's awareness on the present moment, while calmly acknowledging and accepting one's feelings, thoughts, and bodily sensations, used as a therapeutic technique". You could call it day-dreaming instead.

[EricG]

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@Bimby2 wrote:

Yes, art work, which, when I get involved with can help me become so absorbed in, that I forget about

anxiety and depression. Doing art projects is a great soother to one's mind. Bimby2 

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Yes I too have these mechanisms for getting absorbed and carried away by a pleasurable task forgetting the torment of poor mood. However this has changed dramatically as I have got the bipolar under control with the right treatment. Once I was never bored always able to obsess about something that would be an escape -not mindfulness at all but escapism - that is what everyone is describing. Now that I am relatively well I cannot obsess although I remain interested in the same topics and therefor I cannot escape and, after many years, I find myself bored for the first time. So for me this escapism is a measure of my wellness. I have the privilege now of expanding my life beyond the escapism. I still escape but my life isn’t fritting away whilst I do it and I’m not neglecting my life like I use to with cooking, cleaning and socialising say kept to a minimum. I have a new lease on life I don’t have to escape from – all because I chased treatments and got the right one for me.

[Sweet_cheeks]

Hi Gone PirateThat is sad. I've had that happen a couple of times. Family members have told me it's madness and that my ideas or bad or they don't get them. But I just have to create. I can't help it. When I am manic and just normal and not depressed I am full of ideas. It is so much fun. You're a very creative person, obviously. You say you still come up with words and rhymes and that's great. Stick at it. If you have a crummy thing like mental health issues, having an outlet is so important. It's got me through some really hard times. I wish you all the best in your creative pursuits. I was going to start a thread on creativity and people could share there work or at least talk about their projects.and we're all mad so if the stuff is weird people will probably get it. I started the thread with my crazy stories but took it down next day because I was embarrassed. I was a bit manic. So maybe you'd be interested. I'm going to call it Sane creative people. There's one for craft but not writing or painting or anything like that.