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Looking after ourselves

Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please

My tooth broke tonight, back molar (oh no not another one) - I've had several teeth break (& fillings break) in the past 12 months.

Oh not another trip to the Dentist (again)....

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Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away: No responses please

I wish I could click my fingers and disappear for a while

Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away

Brain is not cooperating today and wants to think about SH and things that make me sad. Let operation 'Try to Get Back to Sleep' begin. 

Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away

Totally p....d off.....

As if daily fatigue (requiring stimulant meds from Sleep Dr Specialist) isn't enough (past 12+ years)

Grinds my confidence & functioning into the ground.

Plus Scoliosis causing back pain (past 25 years).

Plus Irritable Bowel Syndrome & dysfunctional digestion - from my 4 bowel surgeries.

Plus Complex PTSD from childhood abuse & my family upbringing (environment).

When I do ask for help (or just to be heard) - it feels/ seems like no-one will listen (no-one cares).

Trite sarcastic responses (they give me) -

- "just go to the Dr" - I already see a Sleep Dr Specialist!

- "Go to/ see a Counsellor (or Psychologist)" - I already see a Clinical Psychologist!

I take those trite responses to really mean "We don't want to listen", "We don't care a bit"...

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Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away

Rejection after rejection after rejection. How much do I suck it up? When do I call enough? When do I stop fighting the urges and give in. I can't control my SI much longer.

Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away

Hi @Sans911 thank you for sharing how you are feeling with us. I know this is the worry room thread, where people are encouraged not to respond to posts, but I'm concerned about you. It sounds like things are really hard right now. Please reach out to the following services if you need to talk:

 

Lifeline: 13 11 14

Suicide Callback Service: 1300 659 467

If in immediate danger: 000

 

I will also send you an email to check-in with you shortly, please keep a look out for it in your mailbox. We're here with you πŸŒ»πŸŒ»πŸŒ»πŸŒ»

Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away

I'm not sure how I'm feeling but I do know this mood. Alone, thinking that no one cares, that no one should care, that I'm not 'sick enough' to deserve help, that even if I were I still wouldn't deserve it just because I'm me, that I need to be punished for these thoughts, for being weak, for wanting another person involved in shit I should be able to handle, that I should hurt myself to prove I can take it, to prove that I'm strong, to show that nothing can truly hurt me when I can do that to myself, that I deserve to be hurting for being me, for the false SI because if I was gonna do it then I'd do it rather than think it hundreds of times. Mostly deserve to hurt for wanting someone to help and understand. 

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Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away

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Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away

Ergh! Everyone is annoying me this afternoon. They're not even doing anything in particular, it's just that their voices feel like sandpaper in my ears. I can't sit still in meetings; it feels like my head will explode. I'm hiding at work and am paranoid someone will find me. I just want to go live in a cave for a while away from anyone who expects anything of me.

Re: Worry Room - Get it out, and walk away

I'm so tired. I'm tired of being tired. I'm tired of my health issues. I'm tired of the financial stress of the medical bills. I'm tired of dealing with grief. I'm tired of fighting the SH and intrusive thoughts. I'm trying, but it's so hard. 

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