Lived Experience Forum

[Tinkerbelle]

Hi.  I am Tinkerbelle.  I live with overwhelming Loss and Grief, and associated Emotional Trauma etc.  I don't feel like I am living though.  I feel like I am crawling, struggling, through a wasteland of emptiness and heartache.  I don't know how to get out of this hell of an existence that has become my life.  I just want to feel like I can breathe again, and stop this everlasting need to cry and hide from the reality that is my life.  I have no control over the events that led me here.  If I could turn back time and make things as they were two and a half years ago, I would do so without hesitation.  If I could go back even further I would make different choices and make the events that sent me here to this wasteland something so very different.  I want what I had, the people I had, back in my life in a meaningful way.  I am lost.

[Peregrinefalcon]

Hi @Tinkerbelle - Peregrinefalcon here, one of the forum moderators. Welcome!

It looks like you are having a really challenging time today. I hope your peers here on the forum are able to offer you some support. 

However, the forums are not a crisis service. If you are feeling especially distressed, I encourage you to contact Lifeline (13 11 14), Suicide Callback Service (1300 659 467) or, if it is an emergency, 000.

Thank you for reaching out today. It is a brave step!

Take care

Peregrinefalcon

[NatureLover]

Hi and welcome, @Tinkerbelle . I am sorry to hear that you are suffering in an emotional wasteland, and feeling lost. Grief and loss is terrible.

I am wondering if you have any professional supports, to help you get through this tough time....like a supportive GP, a counsellor, or maybe medication?

Please take care of yourself, if possible...

[outlander]

hi @Tinkerbelle

i dont have much advice but i can relate to all that youve said. its how im feeling atm too.

have you got any supports in place at all?

[Tinkerbelle]

Thank you

[Tinkerbelle]

I have a psychologist