Almost everyday, i have this very heavy feeling, as if something inside me is about to explode, about to eat me alive.. I get dizzy at times just by experiencing this, migraine when it's worse.. Needless to say, im in a dark place, the worst part is i have to mask it, i feel that there is no reset button...
When at work, i always feel like the odd man out. i find it difficult to connect with my peers that i always end up being silent... I doubt myself and see me as not good enough in anything. I always feel that people around me are trying to minimize as much as possible their engagement with me... and i always equate it to my being less in terms of what i can offer to the team...
I am tired of pretending that im ok.. I am tired of trying to blend in... i am just tired of feeling like this..
@IThinkINeedHelp Things are feeling really distressing for you at the moment and its great to see you reaching out for support from the community when you are feeling this way. I think its important not to mask these feelings because it doesnt solve anything and makes it harder to get the support you need so please keep reaching out.
As a reminder, if you're concerned about your safety or you'd like counselling support, please reach out to people in your life or you can reach out to the following services:
Lifeline 13 11 14
Suicide Callback Service 1300 659 467
Take good care of yourself tonight and please do reach out for support when you need it
Hi @IThinkINeedHelp. Sorry to hear things are hard at the moment. Like Maggie I relate to the feeling of having to mask how you're really going and the difficult that comes with trying to appear as if you're OK. I can also relate to that feeling of being close to exploding. I feel like I can teeter between 'implode' and 'explode'. It's tough. I know many people here understand what it can be like. I find it helpful to have a place where people get it.
Wondering how you have been going since you posted?
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