Update while I'm able to type, to anyone interested.
I had a terrible and scary night last night, a good day today (i even managed to get to my gig, be open with my supervisor, and do well at my work) and then ended up walking in to hospital voluntarily tonight (with a ? mark around exacly how voluntary it was given it would have been involuntarily if I hadn't). I worked with the same CATT person from the assessment yesterday who met me at the ward and helped be a familiar face for intake. Bypassed emergency and straight into a room on my own with knock out meds waiting. Had an awesome psych nurse and psychiatrist do my intake assessment. All three telling me in a way I believed, that this took courage and insight and was the best thing to do. I feel safe and feel relieved. They know I just need rest, maybe a med review, and to look at the supports I have in place and where we can make that stronger. I can do this here, get stronger again and be back to facing the world head on like I do.
When the call came I had an hour to pack, get to the shops for kid stuff and tell the kids. It was super hard but sibling was so helpful. School will help sibling and the kids, my friend will help them all, and my parents know and sent me a "we love you and care" message. I told the kids I wanted them to know that it's OK to have limits and important to reach out and that I'll always understand and support them to do that. And that I'll be back, bigger and stronger very soon. That's what they can take from this. After initial tears they were very OK and even helped run around packing my stuff. I left them with one having my dressing gown, one with my fluffy blanket and one with my unicorn which they loved. They'll be very OK and we'll supported.
I then caught an uber and the driver was a school dad (of course :face_with_rolling_eyes:). Probs one of the most super awkward moments when he asked who I was visiting and told him I was being dropped off at acute psych unit. We laughed which I liked.
Also got the loveliest message from psych telling me this was huge for me and he was proud.
I feel shocked I did this as this was never ever happening again, but so flipping relieved. I'll sleep safely and well tonight, particularly given I was prescribed multiple times the dose of med I usually take
😉. I can barely stand so I think I'm doing incredibly well to type, but will say good night, sending my mega love and my biggest thanks for the understanding and care.
@Maggie,
@eth,
@outlander,
@Teej,
@Shaz51,
@Gazza75,
@TheVorticon and anyone interested ❤
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