When is enough, enough?

[SimpleAsThis]

Im guilty of it too, silently suffering inside my mind as I watch my life collapse in stages...

It wasnt enough to lose my friends/family
it wasnt enough when I lost my job and independence .
It wasnt enough to be able to admit I was was not in control of the drug - the drug controlled me
It wasnt enough when I saw a stranger in the mirror and lost ME.
It wasnt enough when I let my partner bully and degrade me, until I lost all self esteem and put his needs before mine.
It wasnt enough (love) we both knew it would end.
It wasnt enough when I screamed "YOU DONT MAKE ME HAPPY ANYMORE"
It wasnt enough to be cheated on... By you with the opposite sex!
It wasnt enough when I lost my mind.

But one day you wake up and enough is indeed enough!

After 2 years of hell I discover my partner suffers Narcissistic Personality Disorder and I just feel sick thinking about it....

[kristin]

Hey @SimpleAsThis

So sorry to hear that. Heartbreak is written all over your post. many years ago I found a book called Sometimes have to break to heal I bought it and it took me a couple of years to have the courage to even read it. For me it rang true. I had so many callouses on mine the only way to get free was for it to break.

I'm not sure why I'm telling you this BTW, it just came to me and it seems to be for you. Disregard it if it's no use to you (the notion or the book). 

So what are you going to do?

My mum had NPD too - horrible, it's like others don't exist except as an extension of them. When not needed just swept under the carpet.

Take care of you.

Hope for enough goodness in our lives endures...

Kindest regards, 

Kristin

[Former-Member]

Thank you for joining us here on forums @SimpleAsThis, and sharing your journey with us.

I am wondering if you have had time or energy to pop into the carers forum? There is a wealth of shared stories and support for members of our community that have experienced similar discoveries.

Keep checking in,

Strength and Hope to you.

@Former-Member