@MissGremlin Good morning. i hope you will have a lovely day.
@ENKELI @Jynx @Meowmy @Flutterbug9
i finally had an in charge day yesterday. A little elevated at the end but nice anyhow.
Dust to Dust, Life to Light
To open your eyes to the darkness,
ever-present in the waking hours.
Restful sleep, where have you gone?
I do not want to live like this.
To feel hurts so much...
yet not to feel hurts even more.
My very own mind
mocks me endlessly.
There is no winning against pain
when depression takes hold of me.
Best just surrender quickly
to all the things pulling me under.
The strength to keep going long gone,
every dragging step
of every bloody day
hurts like hell.
Why am I even here right now,
if not to wound myself
with failure,
regret,
and the crushing weight
of being me?
Yet there at rock bottom,
who do I meet?
Not judgement,
not condemnation,
but a quiet awareness
of my suffering.
Something in me still sees
the agony I carry,
even while I drown beneath it.
Perhaps the way forward
is not through the lies
that keep pulling me downward,
but through learning
to face what is true,
allowing some small light
to reach the places
I buried long ago.
