Heartathome

[MissGremlin]

@heartathome I've never struggled with addiction as such but I was addicted to SH which was a really hard cycle for me to break as it had become routine, i did manage to go almost 2 years without doing anything previously then started again but I've been free for about 3 months now. Hope this is ok to share with you, if not please let me know and I'll remove it. 

[TAB]

..your  wish is my command @heartathome  😀

[Realness]

Welcome home, @heartathome !

Good on you.

After years (decades) of no at fault accidents Mum had a minor accident a little over a week ago. It's good to have the comprehensive insurance in place. Finally it saved us some money.

[heartathome]

Not at all @MissGremlin Thank you for sharing something so personal with me! I've known a few people who used SH as a coping strategy, me included. I absolutely agree with you that it can become an addiction. I think anything can. You've done really well to resist SH'ing for the last three months!! That's a significant achievement! I'm so proud of you also! I imagine the pull to feel relief would be similar. I think using will make me feel better but know it's a lie! I know I don't need it, but the thought of using is compelling! I guess both involve making a different choice when the urge shows up. 💜

[ENKELI]

@heartathome I was not a regular user so I found it was easy to give it up, but it took me at least 6 attempts to give up the cigs and if it hadn't been for ex-friend crowing about quitting I may not have done it. As it was it was quite satisfying to hear she was having trouble quitting and I was able to tell her I'd already quit weeks before. It was like a screw you biatch moment. 

I became the only person I knew who smoked and knew I would be strapped for cash while I paid my mortgage and car off early so they were my deciding factors. Mum and I joke that before she shuffles off her mortal coil we are going to have one last smoke!

You go girl!

[heartathome]

Thanks @Realness I'm glad your mum's okay! It's a lot of money each fortnight but I think I need it to see my psychiatrist each month (even though he bulk bills me) and what's the bet that if I let it expire, something would happen. Are you okay? I have a vague recollection of you going through something. I'm sorry that I haven't kept up with what's been going on for you... or anyone else for that matter! Sending you hippy hugs and much love 🫂

[MissGremlin]

Thankyou @heartathome sweetheart ❤️. It's very hard with that pull, I just try to keep my hands busy at all times. Both definitely involve making a different choice and it's not always easy but we're doing it ☺️.

[Realness]

Hi @heartathome ,

I'm okay. I've just been thinking deeply and patterns are emerging of what went wrong with life. Or at least why I had the predisposition to develop mental health issues. The Christian Chat has gone a bit quiet so I thought I'd share more than scripture to fill the gap while others' hands are full. I'm still working out how to navigate this situation I'm in. Can I do better than just immersing myself in reading?  But I still feel peaceful despite the lethargy and questions I'm pondering.

Please - no need to apologise - your hands have been extremely full.

Hope you have a wonderful sleep.

Sending you love and support.

[heartathome]

Hey @ENKELI Thanks for your post! I've written a lengthy reply twice and twice it's disappeared as I posted it! It seems I have to sign in each time I want to go onto SANE now and when I've tried to post yours, it goes to the blue discussions and forums section and I lose my reply. I don't understand why when the others have worked. Let's see if it works this time, when I say nothing! 

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[heartathome]

That'd be right! @ENKELI The bl**dy thing worked that time! I have to remember to copy my reply before sending it off for when it happens again...because it has before and most likely will again! It's so frustrating, especially when it was a good, lengthy post! Anyhow, if this one goes through, know I love you and your posts to me! 

That's right. I was saying that I'm the only 'open' smoker (vaper) at church and can feel the disapproval. I know another woman who smokes but hides it from the people at church. Their disapproval is only an assumption of mine and isn't necessarily the truth. My head will tell me all kinds of things and even if they do disapprove, that's their right. I really don't care much about what other people think of me and my Christian walk. I've always been a bit of a rebel! lol