perhaps what i am trying to deal with is circumstancial @oceangirl like am at place of work have run away from before and had first of many days off the other week, my employer told me i had to deal direct with the boss of the place I have history with, i pretty much quit after that, had week off, then did all shifts expected 1 week, most last week after being told 'was still required'
It does not take 'me' into account. just hurdle after hurdle and i let them 'herd; me back to work there. think leaving for real this morning lol bugger that have tools still there' am about to leave for there, woke up 'I dont want to ' in my head over and over
