@frog. I'm sorry to hear you are wobbly today and on the edge of panic.
I try two totally different things when panic is creeping up on me.
1 - I do deep breathing exercises. Find a quiet space to sit or lie down (whatever is comfortable today).
I take a deep long breath into my belly - so my belly rises up. When my belly is full, I slowly release all the breath.
I do 3 or 5 of these deep breaths & then I start bringing my breath back to a more natural rhythm. And I sit or lie there simply breathing in and out. Focusing on the breath.
Often (because I used to practice this technique daily) - it could prevent a full blown panic attack and calm me right down.
2 - I sleep. Do Sodoku puzzles, colour in, watch mind numbing tv (nothing serious or heavy), put on some CD's I like, have a long shower (focusing on the feel of the water on my skin), go outside to my backyard (feel safe here) & listen to the noises - birds singing, barking dogin the distance, etc. What flowers are out in my garden at the mmoment? Walk up and smell them. Look at their colour, their complex or simple patterns. Maybe cut some flowers and put them in a vase in your favorite room.
It's hard when feeling panicked. Try a few different diversion tactics.
I do hope you start feeling better real soon.
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