Lived Experience Forum

[JosRapp]

It was another bad week really. The loneliness is always there, of course, but sometimes it feels like it spikes higher. This week, it and the touch deprivation have been suffocating most of the time. It just doesn't feel like either is ever going to get better. Just going out, being around people, just seems to add the feeling of being invisible, unnoticed. Hobbies and interests are just temporary diversions, that I still don't get to share doing. I try dating apps and such, but, it is really just the same as going out ... the same experiences, with the same results. Over and over, and over again. 

[JosRapp]

The more times I am told I am strong. That I can keep going on hope alone, that it will happen when I least expect it ... the more and more it feels like I am just being thrown to the lions. Over. And over. And over again. 

Maybe I am wrong, but, I think if you care about someone, you wouldn't want to see them distressed and upset and in pain. You would want to try to stop whatever hurt them. 

I'm just so tired of having to fight the lions alone all the time.