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17-12-2018 09:21 AM
17-12-2018 09:21 AM
Re: Just checking in.
I was with friend when those feelings hit last night. We were in the middle of a very close moment (quietly because of littler sleeping ones we are careful around) when an out of the blue lump happened in my throat then a couple of tears. I tried to push it all back down but it kept coming until a deep, raw, intense sadness made its way up and out. When that happens I can hear myself thinking 'no this is not happening, cut it out, stop it right now', but I can also hear myself saying that it's OK to be sad and that I won't actually drown in my puddle of feelings even though it feels like I will. Then I become angry with myself for being hard on myself because I am soft inside 😏. It's noisy, messy and confusing.
Things for me can be overdrive which I admit I can and do take up a level, and maybe that's part of telling myself to suck it up Princess. Feelings are just so inconvenient sometimes. Even the feelings I am developing for friend can annoy me because they threaten to take some well established walls down and those walls have served the very helpful purpose of allowing me to function. I worry that without what is probably a guarded toughness (ice queen-ness) I will leave myself too exposed to inside and outside stuff.
(Probably a great thing that the NDIS has come through as clearly I have some work to do with my psych 😑)
That was a big vent which I am very thankful for having the space to do and will now leave here so I can do the functioning thing, beginning with an intake appointment for a family violence counselling service, a blood test to confirm hcg levels have decreased and put a numerical value on how not-pregnant I am (which feels full of wrong), then a house full of people thanks to me offering to lend hand today (taking it up a level there maybe) and carols with about a bazillion hyped up kids. Yay/ugh life :face_with_rolling_eyes:😉
Thank you for listening anyone who may have. Setting myself a mini challenge to find and share a highlight of the day as I know there will be one if I pay attention, and hoping the day has good feeling moments for everyone.
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17-12-2018 09:58 AM
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19-12-2018 07:24 AM
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19-12-2018 10:44 AM
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19-12-2018 03:10 PM
19-12-2018 03:10 PM
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Hey @CheerBear, saw your post in the worry room. It sounds like the storm you are having after the storm which has been after the other storm.......and it’s ok to be feeling like you do. There are only so many storms people can get through without feeling overwhelmed and angry, hurt and maybe helpless. I think you’ve gone through your fair share.
I hope after Christmas you might be able to feel the calmer weather (I guess that means it’s probably going to be stinking hot 🥵, but hopefully no more storms). I’m feeling the craziness of this time of year and I’ve not had any major storms for a while. It totally sucks that our emotions have to ramp up a notch at this time of year anyway.
So.....I’m going to overwhelm you with the following (cos I can 😜😘)...
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19-12-2018 03:15 PM
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PS I have not been on the forum much because life has got busy. I’m doing ok.💜🤗
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19-12-2018 04:34 PM
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I am glad you are doing OK. I have been hoping that you've been alright during what I know is a challenging time for so many.
Thanks for being you Teej.
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20-12-2018 03:06 PM
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On the back of some decent and much needed sleep and a better afternoon/evening last night I feel a little less negative about about life today. I feel mixed up about what happened to finish this year off for me but, probably inspired by your post yesterday Zoe7, I spent some time remembering that there has been so much more than that. I don't expect anyone to read or reply to this novel but I've shared enough tricky lately and wanted to remember some good that happened this year while I can see it.
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20-12-2018 03:19 PM
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Much like you stated yesterday after reading my post I have the same feelings for you today @CheerBear - so very proud of how you have handled so many tricky situations this year and even prouder that you are finding some good in your year and more importantly within yourself Super proud and super happy for you Hon
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20-12-2018 04:12 PM
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I was wondering what you think would be the most significant factor in you getting to where you are? If there is one and if you feel like answering, thinking about it, replying etc. some time.