Hi @eth ,thanks for ur post on the 27th, sorry to take so long to reply.
Re doctor, I don't rly go to GP much, my situation is so severe that I stick with the psychs. Re the psychs, I'm in the public system at the MH unit of local hospital. The way it works is u r assigned a team depending on which area u live in which consists of a psych registrar, psych senior consultant and an OT. So I see one of the 2 psychs, sometimes both. There's no real option for 2nd opinion due to how the system works, and I can't afford private.
Sleep is a major issue. With the meds I get about 3-4 hours of poor quality sleep a night and it's bn like that for months. But I feel like the meds r making other symptoms worse but when I don't take them I don't sleep a wink, so it's a catch 22. To be honest I feel like I have just consistently got worse from the time I became involved in the MH system. I hope my post doesn't get cancelled for saying that, but that's just bn my experience.
Thank u for info re disability support pension. How do u manage to survive on that? At the moment I am not eligible bcoz I get a percentage of my previous income by way of salary continuation insurance, but that has a limited time span. It's not enough to make ends meet tho. Im not sure how we wld survive on disability/carers pension. Re hubby going on carers pension, things aren't going too well between us, me being in this state has taken its toll. I am scared of just about everything now but he has said life continues on and I can't expect everyone else to put their life on hold for me. He is not very tolerant of me and what I am going thru, which I can understand to some degree. For example, I am afraid to be on my own now and he has arranged to go away for a full 12 hour day this Tuesday without discussing it with me and I'm petrified about it. He just got rly annoyed at me when I said I was rly concerned and scared about it. He said hes not going to stop living his life and put everything on hold just bcoz I can't cope and hav become a dependant. He said il just have to find a way to deal with it. Sounds rly harsh I know, which it is, but knowing where wev come from and where we r now, how much our life has changed, how much I have changed and our relationship has changed, I can understand it to some degree. I am not the woman he married. He loves that woman, not this one, so it is a very difficult situation. He's not working at the moment but is trying to get a job and I just don't know how I'm going to cope being on my own all day every day. It's just ridiculous how much iv changed and how much fear I live with now, and I just don't seem to be able to do anything about it. I know I went into quite a bit of detail about what I'm going thru in the post that u replied to, but it really is torture.
Anyway Eth, thanks for 'listening' and for ur support. I hope I haven't dumped too much. I really appreciate ur warm wishes. Thank u. Hope to hear from u.
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