Winter solstice

[AuntGlow]

I can hear that your psychiatrist hasn't been able to meet you in that space of feeling truly seen and heard, and my gosh, that can be so tough when we are already feeling vulnerable. @Dimity 

What help do you need him to provide most right now?

I am so sorry to hear that craft group has imploded and that you're feeling on the outer, especially during a time where you're really needing that extra support and connection. Have you been able to reach out here at all?

It sounds like you're starting to explore some really interesting readings. I know it may not feel like a lot, comparative to all you have going on, but allowing yourself that time for you is so important; because you do deserve to feel lightness and happiness wherever you can find it. 

You did mention the support worker. This is so disappointing, I know how much you were looking forward to further support. Is looking for a new worker a possibility at all? 

Thank you for letting me know you are safe. I understand the low ebb... do you think your body is asking you to feel what you're feeling (safely, of course), or is it maybe needing some supportive, soothing distractions? 💛

[Dimity]

@AuntGlow I guess it's finally dawned on me why my psychiatrist hasn't been supportive, and I don't think I can look to him for anything other than medication supervision. 

Ongoing connection with a handful of forums folk helps keep me going.

I really don't know if I can face trying to find another support worker. It's very demoralising to be rejected. And I don't know if I can afford it when my gp has told me to arrange to see several allied health people, without offering subsidised referrals.

What my body is asking me to feel... is the continuing  long and painful walk without a safe and welcoming destination.  It seems a dark and bitter struggle.  

[NatureLover]

Sending care and hugs @Dimity 🫂❤️

[Dimity]

@NatureLover I hope your iron infusion is starting to kick in. I'm unwell and on strong antibiotics (I knew I was run down). I might also need more surgery. 

I'm not sure what to do but don't feel up to goalsetting. I guess I'll be taking things quietly for a few days.

[Shaz51]

Awww hugs 🫂 @Dimity 

Sitting with you and hope you feel better soon 💕 

[NatureLover]

Oh no re being sick and a potential further surgery, @Dimity ! 😥

I definitely hope you can take it easy and not put any pressure on yourself.

The iron infusion takes 2-3 weeks to kick in, apparently. 

[Dimity]

@NatureLover @Shaz51 I see a surgeon tomorrow. Still unwell with infection (but inflammation subsiding). Very tired and depressed. Won't make a good impression on surgeon.

[NatureLover]

Oh, good luck with the surgeon today, @Dimity ! Will be thinking of you 🫂

[AuntGlow]

Hello lovely, @Dimity 💛

I am so sorry that you're feeling like your psychiatrist may only be able to help with medication... it's truly so tough navigating healthcare professionals and knowing what they will/won't be able to help us with. It can be utterly exhausting and you're doing a wonderful job of putting yourself out there.

How are you feeling about all of this at the moment?

Connection here sounds really vital right now. Is there anything specific you're wanting to address with your forum friends? Here to listen. 🥰

I wonder if you can feel what you are feeling, but also create some safe anchors too? 

[Dimity]

@AuntGlow I'm actually not doing too well with healthcare professionals at present, I'm unsure of things and have felt misunderstood and rejected.

I'm very stressed by a family member's succession of accidents and illnesses and am unsure what to do there either. 

I need to address my anxiety as Nurse on Call referred me to urgent care for dangerously high blood pressure. I haven't felt able to ask anyone about it.