Constant flashbacks

[creative_writer]

@Jynx yes I can mention it to them when I next see them. I did manage to fall asleep, I was feeling quite nauseous before bed and needed rest. I slept through my alarms today, but the extra meds made it harder to get up. I don’t have anywhere to be this morning so it was okay, I have uni in the avo. Feeling more levelled right now, I’m hoping it continues to be this way. I am quite foggy from the extra meds but have lots to do

[Jynx]

@creative_writer hope uni was okay on so little sleep, plus surfing the brain fog! 

I'm surprised you had alarms going off without needing to be awake for anything haha I always take a sleep in whenever I can! 

[creative_writer]

@Jynx uni was okay, next week is the last week of teaching period. I only glanced at lecture material briefly and didn’t watch it because I’ve been caught up with assignments.

I set the alarms to prevent myself from oversleeping, I got just over 10 hours today according to my Apple Watch. I could’ve slept more if I let myself. Some of the meds I’m on can be sedating, depression can also increase sleep duration

[tyme]

Sounds like a tough gig @creative_writer .

Not sure I can work in a crisis service. I'm guessing you never know who will call. You take calls, right? Or are there other aspects of it?

You're brave in giving it a go. 

How have things been for you anyway? I've been headachy this week and I can't pinpoint why. Hope you're okay. I know you often say you have migraines.

[creative_writer]

@tyme I prefer doing 2 hour shifts to make it more manageable, 4 hours straight is intense. I will schedule a meet up and I can talk through supports then. They have a lot of support available. Maybe regular check ins with team leader might be helpful.

My migraines have actually been worse lately with manic symptoms emerging. Not sure what triggered the manic symptoms. You know how I mentioned I’m prone to mixed features. I’ve been experiencing a lot of anxiety to the point of palpitations and panic. I don’t get euphoric highs anymore.

I hope your headaches settle. What have you been up to today?

[Jynx]

Oh totally valid @creative_writer oversleeping can be as bad as undersleeping, can get all sorts of foggy. 

Looking forward to a break from uni?

[creative_writer]

@Jynx I’ve made it to like 14 hours in the past. I slept late but woke up at 4pm. I was jet lagged, sleep deprived and depressed.

Yes, I’m looking forward to the break because I really need it. I need to get my mental health back on track. I can talk to the psychiatrist about meds and keep working with my psychologist to improve my coping. I’ve taken the PRN tonight, hopefully the agitation remains settled and doesn’t come back.

How are you today?

[Jynx]

@creative_writer not too bad, snuggling up against the cold. 

Glad that you have a bit of time to spare to be able to see your supports and sort some things out. Hope it helps you to feel a bit more settled 🤞

Got any plans to do something fun or something to treat yourself? 

[creative_writer]

@Jynx  it has certainly been cold. I slept through alarms today, I think I made it to 10 hours ish. PRN certainly didn’t help with the sleepiness but I thought it was better to take the PRN before I became intensely suicidal again. The intrusive memories were getting intense again.

I’m not sure what I will be doing. I could go to the city for an outing with my sister to the cat cafe. Though the cats only seem to be interested if you bribe them with food 🤣

[Jynx]

@creative_writer hope you've been managing okay hun 🤞

Aww cat cafe sounds sublime!! Teehee yes kitties are very food-motivated. Reminds me of a meme actually! 😝