21-01-2020 08:21 PM
21-01-2020 08:21 PM
@Shaz51 I need to slash something. I need to find something sharp. I need to get rid of my anger.
These thoughts in my head are telling me
I'm tired
21-01-2020 08:23 PM
21-01-2020 08:23 PM
pull everything off the bed , throw the pillow across the room @BlueBay xxxxxxx
21-01-2020 08:32 PM
21-01-2020 08:32 PM
Hi @BlueBay I am sorry to hear that you are thinking of harming yourself in your anger this evening. That must be a hard place to be in. Are you able to keep yourself safe and find other ways to let off steam? Getting an early night might be a good idea if you are really tired. Please reach out for help off the forum if you need additional support.
take care
Whitehawk
21-01-2020 08:46 PM
21-01-2020 08:46 PM
ohhh my sister @BlueBay , tale to us xx
are you ok xx
21-01-2020 10:02 PM
21-01-2020 10:02 PM
Hey @BlueBay I hope you can get some sleep tonight xxx
I was at work earlier tonight, but have been thinking about you xx
22-01-2020 12:05 PM
22-01-2020 12:05 PM
Hi @Former-Member @Shaz51 @Angels333 abd others reading
i ended up calling a nurse and told her everything. Running away flashing something. Angry emotional etc etc
she saw i wasn't in a good state. She went to give me a med to calm down and called my psych. Because if they couldn't calm me down I would have to go to public hospital and I didn't like that.
I ended up doing some colouring in to calm down. Then I went to bed and nurse cane in with another med. she spoke to psych and recommended another med to really zonk me out.
I slept all night and my psych was here at 8 am to see me. He told me he was very worried but glad I spoke to the nurse and was honest. He promised me he wouldn't send me to public hospital only if I am a lot wirse.
I'm on 30 min gor my safety.
I really like this new psych. He is wonderfully caring and listens.
I'm going to ask if i can still see him next week when my own psych comes back. Will see.
today is rest day. All I want to do is sleep. I feel like I'm on slow go. But that's what he wants.
He's coming back tomo to see how I'm going.
22-01-2020 01:19 PM
22-01-2020 01:19 PM
Hi @BlueBay glad you found colouring in helped you and that you confided in the nurse, it must not be easy with what your going through. Have been reading posts since back from holidays and haven't really posted much as you know with what's going on with kids and just not good at saying stuff, like you my BPD sucks and hard to live with, ive found most people don't understand it and professionals don't believe It's a reall thing and have even been told not to let anyone know that I have it which I don't realy know how to take, but you give me hope when I see none. It seems like the psyc you are seeing there is really helping and hope that you could see him after as it makes a big difference that you find someone that you can really trust. Hope you get a good rest today.
23-01-2020 02:27 PM
23-01-2020 02:27 PM
Exhausted
not coping with loss of job
this is my major trigger
loss of someone else to talk to
loss of co workers
every day is a struggle
no groups
just sleep
@saturnzoon @Angels333 @Shaz51 @Zoe7 @Owlunar @Maggie @MDT @Gazza75 @Former-Member
and ithers reafing
23-01-2020 02:38 PM
23-01-2020 02:38 PM
23-01-2020 02:44 PM
23-01-2020 02:44 PM
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