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@moderator i still can't tag Blackcloud, lonemushroom and RiverSeal.
@Nala2022 Thanks checking in. Appreciated.
My faith is really the force that is getting me through. i know that truth and love walk hand in hand and that if i want to come out the other end a stronger and more capable person i need to hold onto truthful love to survive.
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i have been working very hard to learn to regulate my states without my wife. Although she has been wonderful over the years helping me do that her love, her turning her back on me, together with most of my family has made this top priority.
i have been awaiting the process for TMS treatments to begin. My GP hopes it might reduce the depressive state somewhat and hopefully will aid sleep for i have been chronically short for a very long time now.
i'm also awaiting an appointment with a psych in the City to discuss alternative medical treatments. i have been accepted as his patient it is about waiting till an appointment becomes available.
i still receive counselling as well to well. To learn to understand, as well as techniques to deal with my more intensive states.
Trying to stay physically in shape has also been a real challenge. i have lost a considerable amount of weight battling the nausea bouts. And although overall they have reduced a lot the last 3 months, they can still really make my life unbearable, and often at the most stressful times. So the nausea has complicating life a lot. Especially getting into Town can be a real challenge. For even prescription medication for the nausea can fail me, like it did yesterday and the nausea literally floored for hours to sick to move, soon after i came back from a trip into Town. (a 25 minute drive) Such are stark reminders that if that had happened a little earlier i would have been stuck in Town.
i do believe i'm learning to regulate my states much better than at first. It has been depressive state here i have always struggled worst and now do again. For i can become so detached from my own emotions in that state when i dip down that hole again. Such has been very frightening to have to go through on my own time and again the last months.
i do still get better days as well. But have been unable to do much during those times, mainly rest and try and snooze in my chair or catch extra sleep, but this has still been rather difficult even on medications. i have been doing art and write poems to help me process the experiences i have been through. However i have very little energy to do much more than a little walk through the garden or doing light chores left undone during the times i was too unwell to do so.
My life has been extremely challenging lately and it can be very hard to have reason to fight on at my states worst times.
