@Meowmy Yes i learned that in the end as well prevention is so very much better than months of struggling bad times.🤗
Do you find it also hard to know when your fears are your paranoia or real fears? i realised it was paranoia taking hold of my fears that confused the issues so much for me.
@Jynx @Chasingsunsets @Glisten @MissGremlin
i really struggled with anxiety for many years in my life. To face fears that are unrealistic to happen at the time it happens, resisting, even for seconds at first, is how i learned to deal with my anxiety fuelling fear thoughts.
Hard lessons learned!🤗
Fear Holds Fast,
Fear grabs hold with hot iron grip
evil thoughts quick confusion sowing
birthing me terrorising conditions
harvesting my own faithless heart.
All my doubts and unbelief's peaking.
Hopes and dreams torching the flames!
Daily goals a catastrophe unfolding!
Earthquakes shattering my defences.
Feeling that loveless grip ramming.
Cruel enemies rejoice an easy victory!
Advancing through my broken gates.
with me watching the fires burning!
i am a mess inside my dwelling place.
Terrors cast hair raising shadows.
My fears fuelling every insecurity.
Shamefully exposing weakness.
Paranoid voice good life plundering.
Scorching torches lie me darkness.
Roasting me freaking me for dinner.
My life serving the wicked feasting.
My friends, My friends do i thirst!
For i forsook my own loving truth.
Believing those lies hurting me badly.
Will i ever learn seeing self only true?
My friends, My friends do i thirst!
For i forsook my own loving truth.
Believing those lies hurting me badly
Will i ever learn seeing myself only true?
Wrote a poem about this once
Hey Untrue!
See…
hear…
feel…?
do. do. do.
have. have. have.
take. take. take.
silencing all who oppose
breeding deep in the dark,
feeding on all that you drain—
what is it all for?
your core of corruption—
you call it life?
who built you?
who pays for your becoming?
why spend the time you’re given
on egos already decaying?
(morning after morning—
you fade a little more.)
rule…
rule…
rule…
arrogance crowns each breath
fear.
guilt.
shame.
goodness driven into hiding
innocence fractured and taken
honesty buried under your weight
addiction reigning, violence stalking,
desire turned weapon against the self—
you call this freedom?
run. hide. mask.
lie upon lie upon lie—
bending truth, pulling strings,
puppets dancing in your shadow
cowards waiting in silence
for innocence to pass by—
which face do you wear now?
where will you hide at the end?
do your answers fear the light?
curse. swear. yell.
virtue on the tongue—
rot in the core
twisting. choking. suffocating.
until the voice goes silent
and care falls away
T W I S T
S W E R V E
S T R I K E
the tongue ignites—
N O W
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C O N T E M P T
D E C E I T
D E T O N A T I O N
lies explode outward
light dimmed within
innocence consumed
how long—
before silence?
you drain what life offers
falling stars burn out
but when truth breaks through—
L I G H T
what power remains?
no more believing you
no more losing myself
OUT.
OUT OF MY LIFE—
ALL OF YOU
no more lies
no more chains
clarity—
my ground
burn…
burn…
burn…
the fire you lit
consumes you
as for me—
I rise
free
no fear remaining
a clear light within
alive. restored.
walking true
until nothing false remains
