Yarning Space - Check in coffee and chat

[ArraDreaming]

on the main forums I would feel more it has more of a place
but I’m not allowed

Yeah I do. Missed the appointment yesterday though.

Anyway, how are you. I’m making a cuppa.
Applying for new rental.

[Till23]

If you don't want to say too much on forums @ArraDreaming 

Do you have a psych or any other mental health workers, social workers SEWB supports etc where you might be able to talk about things more?

[ArraDreaming]

I would rather not do it here, basically thats it,  anytime I do it never works out for me anyway 

[Till23]

Ok, so I'm not recommending hammer treatment @ArraDreaming 

It seems like maybe you are not used to opening up and talking about how you feel. Maybe you've never had the opportunity to do that before or it has not been met with compassion.

I didn't really open up until the last few years. Just kept stuff to myself for like 50years

[ArraDreaming]

I’m sorry if I pushed you away Till
Its not you personally mate

[ArraDreaming]

Even right now

[ArraDreaming]

cause every time I say anything remotely vulnerable just want to take it back instantly and it makes me want to slam my head with a hammer

[ArraDreaming]

I don’t friggen know 

[Till23]

Yeah I agree @ArraDreaming feeling you've been betrayed or even let down by another is hard. It's probably one of the harder things to deal with I think.

Although at the moment my view might be biased because I feel let down at the moment. 

My psych has told me she is discharging me because I am too complex. So I feel the work I put into that definitely has less value than it would have had. So I'm a bit lost at the moment. Interestingly, that psych had a good understanding of issues for indigenous people.