Hi @BlueBay
It's wise to stay inside while the air is so smoky - I had a bad cough yesterday and felt really exhausted - I went to the pharmacy in the afternoon and got some cough medicine and that has helped a lot - maybe it would help you too if you have asthma - as do I.
A new framework of activity seems to be starting - I remember when I had a huge change in my life I didn't know what to do at first - really strange feeling - but regular life soon took up it's demands and reality set in - life does go on and you are finding this out now
That black-and-white thinking you have does take over - life is never all black or all white - you are not unemployed - you are between jobs - you might ask what the difference is but it's plain to me - you have plans - you need a spell in hospital and when you get out you will be looking for work and that can be a full-time job - it's a bit harder because of the fires - the ecomony will take a hit for a while - but life will pick up again - it's not as disastrous as it seems - just a huge challenge and your BPD makes it all seem worse than it is
But if you hold onto being okay you will be - maybe you need to redefine "okay" - nothing is ever perfect -
But your son doesn't need to be rude to you - that is not acceptable behaviour -
And pain will seem to be worse when the air is so smoky - I understand that - it's time to take things easy for lots of reason
Thinking of you though - all the time
Dec
